currently re-listening to some nustyle gabber i used to bump on the daily in 2024. reminded me that despite his early releases, what i really want for my gabberhorse is some hard shit. however, because i tend to make what i feel like and put idea to keyboard, i haven't necessarily been able to do so that much. even though i bump nustyle when i'm really pissed off, i've never made it while i was pissed, and it's always just kinda ended up as a happy sound or a goofy hybrid with another genre. i kinda also don't think i've found the perfect synth yet... but when i do i will make some epic nustyle. it'd be a great outlet for me, because unlike rex between the ages of 4-6, i do not black out and start beating people up. i mourn that my anger issues have been tamed because i'm such a pushover lmao. that doesn't mean they're gone, that just means i'll have a very furious or a simple irritated look on my face while making passive aggressive insults at you. certainly better than #Some of the people in my family
i also think it's a little? hard to do an actually good nustyle song that draws you in. a lot of nustyle, at least modern stuff, has a sound to it that i don't really care for (but that goes for like... most hardcore made after 2012. and this is including current stuff from iconic artists in the scene, though they do still have semblence of their old sounds. i'm not saying you can't get better over time, i'm just saying i prefer the older hardcore sound.)